it just occurred to me that the quality of my work and my presentation skill is diminishing day by day. i just had a presentation yesterday with clients and it starts to make me feel inadequate. i know i was a good employee before. i know the strengths of my skills and i'm confident that i am good at what i do. but recently i've been feeling that everything i've done is not up to standards, not even my own.
so last night i talked about it with one of my 'consultants' and he asked me "did you put any effort in doing the work?". it got me thinking that maybe my work is so bad because i haven't really put any effort into doing it. at the beginning i did, but now i just feel i'm doing the same things over and over again. it's a never ending cycle. i keep repeating the same presentations over and over and over and over.... hur~ it's just that it's going nowhere. and the reaction from clients is the same whether i give a good or a bad presentation. the reaction is the same.... there is no motivation in doing anything. no motivation in doing a better job.
and being here for almost 1 year and the boss can still find a way to put you down. just this morning he said that we dont have the capacity to be creative and we cant come up with catchy slogans like the copy writers. a' DUH! cuz we're NOT copy writers!!!! and he always compare us to japanese dudes, how is that even possible? i mean japanese are lunatics... we're not lunatics!!! i hate this working environment.
gosh! i'm depressed!!
29 September 2006
25 September 2006
worrisome sleeper
i couldn't sleep last night. i was lying around my bed trying to sleep .. and i ended up falling sleep at around 1:30 am.. and woke up half an hour after!!! hur~ then i fell asleep and woke up again at around 5 am... hur~ and then i try to sleep until my alarm clock goes off but that didn't happen. i'm still blurred.
it took me awhile to type this.. i keep typing wrong. i think my brain-hand coordination is off today. damn!
it took me awhile to type this.. i keep typing wrong. i think my brain-hand coordination is off today. damn!
21 September 2006
COUP COUP COUP!!!
It was such a big night for Thailand on tuesday (Sept 19th). I was freaked out!!!
At first I didnt know anything about it. I was blatantly being depressed at the dorm and then *ring*ring* I got a phone call that tells me there are military tanks rolling around in Bangkok. And then I turned on the tv and saw nothing but the special documentary about the King, and I was so confused and scared. Later I found out that there was a Coup D'etat!!! So I tried calling my family members and couldnt get through. Tried calling my dad, but he was at the airport and his phone was off. Tried calling my brother, but his phone was busted and he wasnt at the dorm. Then I called my mom, and thank God the phone wasnt jammed.
Anyhow, I guess everything is back to normal now. Normal being traffic jams and people walking on the streets with no fear... except that there are military men guarding the streets incase of violence. Although the news insisted that this is the end, but of course there are still doubts in the people's mind. Wait til the former PM comes back... we'll see what happens then.
At first I didnt know anything about it. I was blatantly being depressed at the dorm and then *ring*ring* I got a phone call that tells me there are military tanks rolling around in Bangkok. And then I turned on the tv and saw nothing but the special documentary about the King, and I was so confused and scared. Later I found out that there was a Coup D'etat!!! So I tried calling my family members and couldnt get through. Tried calling my dad, but he was at the airport and his phone was off. Tried calling my brother, but his phone was busted and he wasnt at the dorm. Then I called my mom, and thank God the phone wasnt jammed.
Anyhow, I guess everything is back to normal now. Normal being traffic jams and people walking on the streets with no fear... except that there are military men guarding the streets incase of violence. Although the news insisted that this is the end, but of course there are still doubts in the people's mind. Wait til the former PM comes back... we'll see what happens then.
19 September 2006
alone again~
I'm feeling kinda confused. I'll be off to Australia for masters at the beginning of next year and I kinda wanna go, but not really... I mean i know it would be really fun and it is a welcome change to my mundane life. At least I wont be working aimlessly. But there are many things that worries me still.
I'm gonna be all alone!!! I was also alone when I came back to Thailand for my bachelor, but in Thailand, at least I am familiar with the language and the people. But going to Australia will be a whole new start for me. The big things like university and money issue doesnt bother me as much. It's the little things, like where I'm gonna stay, or where I can visit to do the laundry, or where I'm gonna find food to eat. It's gonna be all new. And I'm scared that I have to venture through it on my own. Mind you, it's also kinda exciting. HUr~ so I still really dont know how I feel about going. I guess I'll figure it out along the way.
I'm gonna be all alone!!! I was also alone when I came back to Thailand for my bachelor, but in Thailand, at least I am familiar with the language and the people. But going to Australia will be a whole new start for me. The big things like university and money issue doesnt bother me as much. It's the little things, like where I'm gonna stay, or where I can visit to do the laundry, or where I'm gonna find food to eat. It's gonna be all new. And I'm scared that I have to venture through it on my own. Mind you, it's also kinda exciting. HUr~ so I still really dont know how I feel about going. I guess I'll figure it out along the way.
05 September 2006
Conversations with Japanese II
Since my last blog about talking to Japanese people was so popular (....like 3 ppl read it...haha), I wanted to write a couple more incidents with Japanese people.
ps. again, typos are on purpose!!
FIRST
During a discussion on eating habits of male university students with clients, we were all trying to think of the kind of food that Thai male university students like to eat. The client said "Does Thai mayl shatudengs like da-me-noo-da?". What I heard the client said was "Does Thai male students like Dominoes?". I though I was so smart in cracking his secret language, but then again... Thailand doesn't have Dominoes (to some of you Dominoes is a pizza chain). So that can't be right. As I turned to my left, ready to ask Nun what she heard, she was also turning towards me. She asked me what I heard, and I told her, then I asked what she heard. What she heard was "Does Thai male students like Dummy women?" (HAHA) That's worst than me!!! The 2 of us can't make out what the client was saying, so we turned to P'Toy and asked her. What the client really said was "Does Thai male students like RAMEN NOODLE?" (!!!!!!!!)
LAST
So the whole team was at a meeting with clients. They were explaining some scientific background. It was not very amusing. Teaching scientific backgrounds to marketing students.... should NOT be done. Anyway, we were all half asleep and pretending to look at the powerpoint slide on the board. Then the client showed a powerpoint slide of skin layers. And my eyes immediately point to one skin layer.. why? Because in the presentation there is a small arrow pointing to it, naming it 'HORNY CELL'. I cant stop smiling to myself. I can't laugh, so the only thing I can do is smile. I had to turn my head towards the board and hide from the boss incase he saw a glimpse of my smile. But that's not enough! The client continued explaining that "Horny Cells are cells that get hard easily"!!!!!!!!!! It was like torture! It's like you're being tickled when your hands are tied behind your back..... while sitting in an exam room..... being monitored by armed soldiers!!!! I'm glad I wasn't facing any of my colleagues cuz I know I will burst out laughing .
ps. again, typos are on purpose!!
FIRST
During a discussion on eating habits of male university students with clients, we were all trying to think of the kind of food that Thai male university students like to eat. The client said "Does Thai mayl shatudengs like da-me-noo-da?". What I heard the client said was "Does Thai male students like Dominoes?". I though I was so smart in cracking his secret language, but then again... Thailand doesn't have Dominoes (to some of you Dominoes is a pizza chain). So that can't be right. As I turned to my left, ready to ask Nun what she heard, she was also turning towards me. She asked me what I heard, and I told her, then I asked what she heard. What she heard was "Does Thai male students like Dummy women?" (HAHA) That's worst than me!!! The 2 of us can't make out what the client was saying, so we turned to P'Toy and asked her. What the client really said was "Does Thai male students like RAMEN NOODLE?" (!!!!!!!!)
LAST
So the whole team was at a meeting with clients. They were explaining some scientific background. It was not very amusing. Teaching scientific backgrounds to marketing students.... should NOT be done. Anyway, we were all half asleep and pretending to look at the powerpoint slide on the board. Then the client showed a powerpoint slide of skin layers. And my eyes immediately point to one skin layer.. why? Because in the presentation there is a small arrow pointing to it, naming it 'HORNY CELL'. I cant stop smiling to myself. I can't laugh, so the only thing I can do is smile. I had to turn my head towards the board and hide from the boss incase he saw a glimpse of my smile. But that's not enough! The client continued explaining that "Horny Cells are cells that get hard easily"!!!!!!!!!! It was like torture! It's like you're being tickled when your hands are tied behind your back..... while sitting in an exam room..... being monitored by armed soldiers!!!! I'm glad I wasn't facing any of my colleagues cuz I know I will burst out laughing .
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