miserable

it's christmas and new year time and i am in no mood to be happy or to celebrate anything.  although there are people around, and i get to spend time with doggy, i can't seem to be happy.  i miss teeruk so much that i want time to travel quadruple the speed it normally does.

i like to feel that i'm needed... somehow... and now that we're not living together and hardly ever talk, i feel that he doesn't need me anymore.  that his life is fine without me and that i'm the only one being miserable from missing him so much.  and i can't even tell him that i'm miserable.  i have to support what he wants to do and keep hoping that the love that we have built is strong enough to withstand the time and that his feelings for me will not change.

it's just so hard having to change from being together all the time to not knowing when i will get to talk or to see him again.

most nights i cry myself to sleep..... and he has no idea.

mixed feelings

tonight is the last night i'm spending at the sail @ marina bay - our home for the past year.  i am happy to be moving out because it means a step closer to you.  but i am also sad.  i've never done well with good byes - even if it's to a concrete block.

incomplete

ever since you relocated for work, i've been sad everyday.  i don't understand myself.  why is it so hard to be apart from you?  i try to be strong but i often breakdown when i realize that you won't be walking through that front door anymore.

i know it's something that you have to do.  i know it's not the right time.  but you have no idea how hard it is for me to not know when i'll get to see you, or when i'll hear your voice again.

i feel so pathetic being weak, i don't want to be weak.  but i miss you so much.  i miss hearing your voice.  i miss seeing your face everyday.  i miss your hugs and kisses.

i'll try my best to be strong and i wish you all the best in accomplishing your goals and be the person you want to be.

i'll wait for you ok.  please come home soon.

Double meaning

I think the recent Stella Artois ads are quite eye catching.  Their current tagline is 'Perfection has it's price'.  It's very simple in design and there are no clutter of messages.  But at least one of them made me confused about what they are really trying to say.

'Expensive Until You Try It'

What does that mean?  It tastes cheap??

If I can tweet on BKK-SIN flight Nov.6th, 2009

• I think the plane will be on its wheel all the way to Singapore
• The screen is showing the wrong info, hope the pilot remembers the destination
• Ooh... fish ball green curry...
• Ooh oh... the cabinet in the toilet is held together by masking tape
• At least the service on this flight is much better than SIN-BKK flight
• My hand sanitizer splattered when I opened it -_-

If I can tweet on SIN-BKK flight Nov.4th, 2009

• It's about to take off and I have to use the toilet... URGENTLY!!! >.<
• This flight have no TV
• I wish I can tweet on the plane
• Is it just me, or had TG inflight service dropped dramatically?
• Don't take my coke!!
• I think the guy next to me wants to use the toilet but is blocked by me and my food tray
• Tweeting is like talking to yourself
• Gonna try to sleep now
• Do you put a full-stop "." when you finish typing your tweet?