03 October 2010

Am I Stupid?

All the education in the world will never be enough to prepare you for a heartbreak.  Actually, scratch that.

All the education in the world will never be enough to prepare you for how painful it is to love someone.

Heartbreaks can be so much easier to deal with if you hate the person, or at least know how to stop loving them.  Love is the biggest and hardest emotional hurdle to get over.

Despite what everyone says, despite it being smack right in front of me, my heart seemed to shut itself from the obvious.  Granted, there are some moments when I start to dislike you.  But at the end of the day I still love you.  At times I'm happy to know that you're still alive.  At other times I hate knowing that you are still alive but you're not beside me.

I don't think it's stupid that I still want to be beside you to support you through your successes and failures.  But I am obviously stupid for thinking that there is even a tiny chance that can ever happen.

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