The Art Of Letting Go

... is something I need to learn to master.

"Letting go doesn't mean you stop caring, it means you stop expecting the other person to"

I admit I still can't let it go.  I still want him to care.  I would also admit though, that it doesn't mean I'm unhappy all the time.  There are moments in my life when I look around me and feel grateful for everything in my life.  At the very least, I don't have to hide who I really am.  I don't have to live a lie.

There's still a missing piece in my heart that only he can complete, but right now, I am exactly where I'm supposed to be.  If I were to end up not having that piece that completes my heart, my life would still be fine... because I put my best in everything that I do.  When it comes to that, I have no regrets.

Am I Stupid?

All the education in the world will never be enough to prepare you for a heartbreak.  Actually, scratch that.

All the education in the world will never be enough to prepare you for how painful it is to love someone.

Heartbreaks can be so much easier to deal with if you hate the person, or at least know how to stop loving them.  Love is the biggest and hardest emotional hurdle to get over.

Despite what everyone says, despite it being smack right in front of me, my heart seemed to shut itself from the obvious.  Granted, there are some moments when I start to dislike you.  But at the end of the day I still love you.  At times I'm happy to know that you're still alive.  At other times I hate knowing that you are still alive but you're not beside me.

I don't think it's stupid that I still want to be beside you to support you through your successes and failures.  But I am obviously stupid for thinking that there is even a tiny chance that can ever happen.