you I

i miss how you insist that i hug you like i will never let you go.  and when i do, i squeeze you with all my strength - until both of us find it difficult to breath.

the first time you asked me to hug you like that, it reminded me of how i used to hug my parents when i was young.  i would randomly run up to them and hug them as tight as my little body can squeeze.  and i was doing the same to you.

now you're gone, and i'll never get a chance to hug you like that ever again.

it's been a while

it's been a long while since my last blog post.  the main reason is because i was getting over a heartbreak.  the biggest betrayal and pain i have ever felt.  i lost the person i love the most and even though he's done horrible things i still do love him and believe in him with all my heart.  that's why it still hurts.


anyway, i shouldn't dwell on it.  life goes on, no matter how difficult it feels at times.


well... that's it... for now